Mistake Lane

What is this that I feel?
You tore me apart.
Ripped open my heart.
All I thought was about you.
How I thought it was so right.
Now I wonder what you ponder.
And if you ever thought the same.
You were gone.
But you reappeared
Go away,
Leave now.
I don't want to deal with you anymore.
You make my days like hell.
I regret everything that has happened.
What did I do to deserve this?
Did I do something that hurt you?
Just tell me,
And it will all make sense.
I put a lot of effort into this.
And this is all it led to.
A mistake.
Now I feel like a chunk of wrong.
Feeling terrible.
Wanting to cry.
Do I feel like I want to go back?
Or am I holding this against you.
I don't know anymore.
I don't know anything.
Will this last forever.
Are you a scratch that will never heal?
A scar that's with me forever?
That is what I can't stand.
You in my memory.
There forever.
There to last.