I love you.
As I hear those words,
Come softly off your tongue
I begin to think,
I couldn't have gotten anything better.
That everything was worth it.
When you hold me close in your arms.
I realize that I wouldn't be there,
If it wasn't for some decisions.
I'd wonder what it would be like,
to hear your heartbeat close to my ear.
When you lips touch mine.
I feel a spark,
Inside my heart.
All my worries are gone.
And all that's in my head,
Is you.
When I hear you breathe
As we lay there to rest,
I feel a sense of tranquility.
My life without you,
would be so stressed.
Anything less,
I'd be wondering...day dreaming.
12.27.2010
10.31.2010
Your Eyes Just Make Me Write
Seeing you, seeing those eyes.
The fire in my heart,
Begins to start.
You pull me closer,
Reeling me in.
Without a doubt,
You wanna begin.
You hold me close
Like you don't wanna let go
And then I hear your heart beat
And it's what I like most.
Things start to change
When I look you in the eyes
My feelings go crazy,
And start to rearrange.
You give me a soft simple kiss.
And then you have me.
Time has stopped.
This moment we have is pure bliss.
The fire in my heart,
Begins to start.
You pull me closer,
Reeling me in.
Without a doubt,
You wanna begin.
You hold me close
Like you don't wanna let go
And then I hear your heart beat
And it's what I like most.
Things start to change
When I look you in the eyes
My feelings go crazy,
And start to rearrange.
You give me a soft simple kiss.
And then you have me.
Time has stopped.
This moment we have is pure bliss.
10.20.2010
Things Light Up
Things light up,
When i see you smile.
Talking to you, hearing your voice,
Please stay awhile.
]Your eyes so green.
Filled with emotion.
I look at them,
And my heart starts a commotion.
My heart beat races
When we are together.
Just me and you.
I'd like to stare into your eyes forever.
You put peace into my heart and laughter into my soul.
I'm so grateful for you,
I'll never let you go.
When i see you smile.
Talking to you, hearing your voice,
Please stay awhile.
]Your eyes so green.
Filled with emotion.
I look at them,
And my heart starts a commotion.
My heart beat races
When we are together.
Just me and you.
I'd like to stare into your eyes forever.
You put peace into my heart and laughter into my soul.
I'm so grateful for you,
I'll never let you go.
10.08.2010
Your Eyes
When I look into your eyes,
I see a whole new world.
Everything stops,
And my heart beat slows down.
I'm relaxed in your presence.
Your eyes are so beautiful.
Sometimes I wonder if you stare into mine.
If you look deep within them and see the truth.
Does it slow down time?
They are a nice emerald green,
With a hint of darkness.
A touch of mystery.
Tell me your secret.
What you want,
All the dreams.
That's in your heart.
I see a whole new world.
Everything stops,
And my heart beat slows down.
I'm relaxed in your presence.
Your eyes are so beautiful.
Sometimes I wonder if you stare into mine.
If you look deep within them and see the truth.
Does it slow down time?
They are a nice emerald green,
With a hint of darkness.
A touch of mystery.
Tell me your secret.
What you want,
All the dreams.
That's in your heart.
10.06.2010
Truth
Just look at me and see,
What I want you to see.
Look deep within my eyes.
And see the truth;
I'm falling deep within you.
So far into you eyes.
Take my hand, pull me right back up,
And hold me by your side.
Let me give up,
Let go of all my burdens.
What I want is to be with you.
I'm tired of feeling the edge.
So be ready to stand tall,
And catch me when I fall.
What I want you to see.
Look deep within my eyes.
And see the truth;
I'm falling deep within you.
So far into you eyes.
Take my hand, pull me right back up,
And hold me by your side.
Let me give up,
Let go of all my burdens.
What I want is to be with you.
I'm tired of feeling the edge.
So be ready to stand tall,
And catch me when I fall.
10.03.2010
Lost.
Lost without you,
Can't see a thing.
Whatever happened,
To you and me?
It never worked out
And we probably missed out.
We could have bee something beautiful;
Sweet or maybe sour.
Who knows what it could have been.
But we lost it.
Do you ever wake up feeling alone?
Desperate?
Wanting more?
Fighting with you in my dreams,
And in my mind.
But it's no use because you're not here,
Not anywhere near.
I just want you to put your arm around me.
Hold me close,
And take care of me
Be kind,
Not decent.
Be there,
Not away.
Don't leave without me because,
I'll be so lonely.
Can't see a thing.
Whatever happened,
To you and me?
It never worked out
And we probably missed out.
We could have bee something beautiful;
Sweet or maybe sour.
Who knows what it could have been.
But we lost it.
Do you ever wake up feeling alone?
Desperate?
Wanting more?
Fighting with you in my dreams,
And in my mind.
But it's no use because you're not here,
Not anywhere near.
I just want you to put your arm around me.
Hold me close,
And take care of me
Be kind,
Not decent.
Be there,
Not away.
Don't leave without me because,
I'll be so lonely.
8.10.2010
What I Want
Wake me up in the middle of the night,
Use your soft voice,
And say everything is gonna be alright.
Know all my worries
Everything that I hide,
Everything inside.
Be understanding
Be by my side,
And hold me when I cry.
Give me the best
And I'll give you the rest,
Of all that you need.
Hold me tight.
Don't let go.
Keep holding on.
Use your soft voice,
And say everything is gonna be alright.
Know all my worries
Everything that I hide,
Everything inside.
Be understanding
Be by my side,
And hold me when I cry.
Give me the best
And I'll give you the rest,
Of all that you need.
Hold me tight.
Don't let go.
Keep holding on.
The Things About You
The dreams I have,
I want them to be real.
Your everything I want.
But I have to watch someone else claim it.
You're what will make me happy.
Truly happy.
I almost have it in a grasp.
But I can't get a grip.
The scars you make.
I hide them
I'm barely breathing
But somehow I'm still alive.
You've got no pain.
It's all of me.
And I'm still taking the blame.
Just sitting by watching time go by,
Where everyday I'm stuck in a shadow.
It's all held in.
Even when you know it.
You won't change it.
You're nothing short of my everything.
You're what feels right,
Never gonna get over this.
I want them to be real.
Your everything I want.
But I have to watch someone else claim it.
You're what will make me happy.
Truly happy.
I almost have it in a grasp.
But I can't get a grip.
The scars you make.
I hide them
I'm barely breathing
But somehow I'm still alive.
You've got no pain.
It's all of me.
And I'm still taking the blame.
Just sitting by watching time go by,
Where everyday I'm stuck in a shadow.
It's all held in.
Even when you know it.
You won't change it.
You're nothing short of my everything.
You're what feels right,
Never gonna get over this.
7.21.2010
The boy
Precious boy
You mean so much to me.
With your deep soothing voice
and your way of words,
you hypnotize me in your love.
But then I realize that I cannot have you.
I feel stranded.
No love to grasp, only loneliness.
Nothing to listen to but a heartbeat.
It echos and reminds me of my dreams.
Dreams of you,
dreams of me.
Together at last,
free as can be.
But when I wake up,
and you're not by my side.
How can I think,
you love me inside.
You mean so much to me.
With your deep soothing voice
and your way of words,
you hypnotize me in your love.
But then I realize that I cannot have you.
I feel stranded.
No love to grasp, only loneliness.
Nothing to listen to but a heartbeat.
It echos and reminds me of my dreams.
Dreams of you,
dreams of me.
Together at last,
free as can be.
But when I wake up,
and you're not by my side.
How can I think,
you love me inside.
7.02.2010
Prove It
Prove it.
You say I'm the best.
Nothing like the rest.
You love me with all your heart.
Prove it.
Prove that your heart,
Skips a beat every time you see me.
When you look into my eyes,
Prove that you see forever.
Not a couple of years.
Show me what love is.
I don't wanna shed tears.
Prove to me.
That even through the bumps down the road,
I won't feel like I do now.
Heart broken like it can't be fixed.
Or a heart that is sick.
Prove to me,
That you see what I see.
When I look at you.
You say I'm the best.
Nothing like the rest.
You love me with all your heart.
Prove it.
Prove that your heart,
Skips a beat every time you see me.
When you look into my eyes,
Prove that you see forever.
Not a couple of years.
Show me what love is.
I don't wanna shed tears.
Prove to me.
That even through the bumps down the road,
I won't feel like I do now.
Heart broken like it can't be fixed.
Or a heart that is sick.
Prove to me,
That you see what I see.
When I look at you.
6.25.2010
Covered Up Light
The light in her eyes
Is hidden deep within the color of the sea.
She has seen death.
And with death comes sadness across everyone's lost faces.
She has seen heart break.
And with heart break comes all crummy things.
Being jealous and betrayed.
What has gone through those eyes has been a hard time.
She's seen failure.
When she wants to see success,
Being optimistic didn't seem to have a point.
The light in her eyes,
Hasn't only seen darkness.
It's seen His love for us.
The light that is hidden beyond the darkness.
Is getting bigger.
Dominating the darkness.
She has been found through Him.
The light has guided her to better things.
God has made the light bigger.
Is hidden deep within the color of the sea.
She has seen death.
And with death comes sadness across everyone's lost faces.
She has seen heart break.
And with heart break comes all crummy things.
Being jealous and betrayed.
What has gone through those eyes has been a hard time.
She's seen failure.
When she wants to see success,
Being optimistic didn't seem to have a point.
The light in her eyes,
Hasn't only seen darkness.
It's seen His love for us.
The light that is hidden beyond the darkness.
Is getting bigger.
Dominating the darkness.
She has been found through Him.
The light has guided her to better things.
God has made the light bigger.
4.27.2010
Hold Me
I never want to let you go,
So good thing I have you to hold.
To be by my side,
And to hold me when I cry.
When I'm down,
I express my feelings to you,
And you make me pry,
My heart wide open.
Like no one else has,
You just have the power,
To always be by my side.
And hold me when I cry.
So good thing I have you to hold.
To be by my side,
And to hold me when I cry.
When I'm down,
I express my feelings to you,
And you make me pry,
My heart wide open.
Like no one else has,
You just have the power,
To always be by my side.
And hold me when I cry.
3.26.2010
Part 1 "Tears Of Joy & Heartbreak"
My name is Emily
And it was sometime around August or something like that.
I wasn’t over Alex, the boy that I was pretty serious
About. It was a typical teenager girly story. I was
About 15, new school, falling head over heals
For a boy. But he doesn’t matter anymore.
What matters is that I met another boy
Charlie was his name. I could sense
Something different in him.
It was really nice.
But in the mean time I had known of another boy, and his name was Eli. I’ve known Eli since I was in
4th grade I believe. I never really talked to him though, not until 8th grade where we were forced to sit next
to each other. We fought like an old married couple to think of it. It was in June when he had got in contact with me, I haven’t talked to him in a year at the time. We exchanged pictures to see if we looked different. He said I had looked different and he grew a bit, he was always a short kid. It took a week or two before he told me that he liked me all those years I knew him. Eventually, I came to a point where I liked him as well, and I was dying in the inside to know if he had given up any feelings for me.
Through long consideration, I really wanted to tell him. I was just nervous about it because of my past with Alex. He was the first boy that I told him that I liked…so I was kind of scarred if you will. I built up the courage to try again.
"Eli? You there?", I typed on my computer.
"Hello Emily!", he typed back.
"Hey, there was something I've been meaning to ask you..." I was so nervous, my hands were shaking.
"Well go on an ask it Em."
"Well...you see...I've been wondering about what you said to me a week ago. You know, how you liked me all those years? It's been dwelling on my mind for awhile, and I was just wondering, do you still feel that way?" Of course when I press enter into the computer, I feel as if why did I just do that!
"Ehh, actually. Yes I do Em. I still do feel that way, very much so actually"
"REALLY."I typed quickly
"Uuh, I mean, wow to think that feelings could last that long huh? Well I feel the same way Eli, and I just thought I should let you know." I was so happy with everything at that moment.
"I'm actually really glad you told me that Em, it means a lot to me.", he said.
"Hehe, no problem (:"
It was successful, he had liked me, and I had liked him back. My dream was coming true, and I was loving every second of it. But loving every second of it didn’t last very long. It was like we grew apart very quickly, and I wasn’t okay with it. Nothing ever happened, there wasn’t even an attempt made.
School started, off to my Sophomore year.
Hopefully it isn’t as depressing as last year.
Oh yeah, Charlie, I didn’t forget about that
one. He kept me sane while Eli and I didn’t
work out. I started to become very fond of
Charlie. He seemed to be popping everywhere
in my life. But I wasn’t having a problem with
that or anything , I liked it. We started to talk
every night. One night, even I thought it was
impossible because he had a girlfriend, we
made an agreement that if any of us liked
each other than we would tell each other.
I bet you could tell from that, that I had some
sort of feeling for Charlie.
I’m at a friends party now, and so is Charlie. We we’re having a blast, just being ourselves. But I was nervous.
Do I really have feelings for him?
Is it a mistake? I don’t wanna be brought down again…
It was cake time, he put frosting on my nose.
It was a slow song, awkward.
We just stood next to each other during it too.
It was another slow song, I broke down.
Yes dramatic me, somehow something in my brain
got picked at with a toothpick.
Something made me think of Alex and Eli.
What was going on? I thought they didn’t matter.
I guess I just don’t know how to let go.
But Charlie saw me, and followed me off the dance floor.
"You okay Emily?", he said softly.
"No, I'm not." My voice was so shaky.
He held me close, rubbed my back lightly, and talked to me about it.
Right then was a spark, I’m sure of it.
Yes, a spark.
A spark of hope possibly.
Maybe?
I was dying to know.
And it was sometime around August or something like that.
I wasn’t over Alex, the boy that I was pretty serious
About. It was a typical teenager girly story. I was
About 15, new school, falling head over heals
For a boy. But he doesn’t matter anymore.
What matters is that I met another boy
Charlie was his name. I could sense
Something different in him.
It was really nice.
But in the mean time I had known of another boy, and his name was Eli. I’ve known Eli since I was in
4th grade I believe. I never really talked to him though, not until 8th grade where we were forced to sit next
to each other. We fought like an old married couple to think of it. It was in June when he had got in contact with me, I haven’t talked to him in a year at the time. We exchanged pictures to see if we looked different. He said I had looked different and he grew a bit, he was always a short kid. It took a week or two before he told me that he liked me all those years I knew him. Eventually, I came to a point where I liked him as well, and I was dying in the inside to know if he had given up any feelings for me.
Through long consideration, I really wanted to tell him. I was just nervous about it because of my past with Alex. He was the first boy that I told him that I liked…so I was kind of scarred if you will. I built up the courage to try again.
"Eli? You there?", I typed on my computer.
"Hello Emily!", he typed back.
"Hey, there was something I've been meaning to ask you..." I was so nervous, my hands were shaking.
"Well go on an ask it Em."
"Well...you see...I've been wondering about what you said to me a week ago. You know, how you liked me all those years? It's been dwelling on my mind for awhile, and I was just wondering, do you still feel that way?" Of course when I press enter into the computer, I feel as if why did I just do that!
"Ehh, actually. Yes I do Em. I still do feel that way, very much so actually"
"REALLY."I typed quickly
"Uuh, I mean, wow to think that feelings could last that long huh? Well I feel the same way Eli, and I just thought I should let you know." I was so happy with everything at that moment.
"I'm actually really glad you told me that Em, it means a lot to me.", he said.
"Hehe, no problem (:"
It was successful, he had liked me, and I had liked him back. My dream was coming true, and I was loving every second of it. But loving every second of it didn’t last very long. It was like we grew apart very quickly, and I wasn’t okay with it. Nothing ever happened, there wasn’t even an attempt made.
School started, off to my Sophomore year.
Hopefully it isn’t as depressing as last year.
Oh yeah, Charlie, I didn’t forget about that
one. He kept me sane while Eli and I didn’t
work out. I started to become very fond of
Charlie. He seemed to be popping everywhere
in my life. But I wasn’t having a problem with
that or anything , I liked it. We started to talk
every night. One night, even I thought it was
impossible because he had a girlfriend, we
made an agreement that if any of us liked
each other than we would tell each other.
I bet you could tell from that, that I had some
sort of feeling for Charlie.
I’m at a friends party now, and so is Charlie. We we’re having a blast, just being ourselves. But I was nervous.
Do I really have feelings for him?
Is it a mistake? I don’t wanna be brought down again…
It was cake time, he put frosting on my nose.
It was a slow song, awkward.
We just stood next to each other during it too.
It was another slow song, I broke down.
Yes dramatic me, somehow something in my brain
got picked at with a toothpick.
Something made me think of Alex and Eli.
What was going on? I thought they didn’t matter.
I guess I just don’t know how to let go.
But Charlie saw me, and followed me off the dance floor.
"You okay Emily?", he said softly.
"No, I'm not." My voice was so shaky.
He held me close, rubbed my back lightly, and talked to me about it.
Right then was a spark, I’m sure of it.
Yes, a spark.
A spark of hope possibly.
Maybe?
I was dying to know.
March 17th
March 13th
I was right beside you.
March 13th
You were in my sight.
March 14th
You went away,
But it was only thought of for a couple of days.
March 14th,
I barely said goodbye.
March 15th,
I didn't hear from you.
But I knew you were in touch with Mom.
I knew you were fine.
March 16th,
We drove to the hospital.
March 16th,
I was in tears.
When I left I kissed you on the forehead so gently.
March 17th,
I was in school.
Trying to escape the thoughts of you.
March 17th,
I regret everything I did.
March 17th,
You went away...far far away..
And I didn't even say goodbye...†
I love you and miss you Grandma Emma. I hope you are having a wonderful life in Heaven. †3.17.09†
I was right beside you.
March 13th
You were in my sight.
March 14th
You went away,
But it was only thought of for a couple of days.
March 14th,
I barely said goodbye.
March 15th,
I didn't hear from you.
But I knew you were in touch with Mom.
I knew you were fine.
March 16th,
We drove to the hospital.
March 16th,
I was in tears.
When I left I kissed you on the forehead so gently.
March 17th,
I was in school.
Trying to escape the thoughts of you.
March 17th,
I regret everything I did.
March 17th,
You went away...far far away..
And I didn't even say goodbye...†
I love you and miss you Grandma Emma. I hope you are having a wonderful life in Heaven. †3.17.09†
Disappearing
Whatever happened to promises?
What's the point of them existing,
If they will become broken.
Whatever happened to trust?
It seemed to fade away,
Just like your personality.
Whatever happened to your laughter?
I can't hear it anymore.
But your frown screams at me.
Whatever happened to your free spirit?
You seem so uptight,
Paranoid too.
What's happening?
You seem so blue,
What's going on with you?
Whatever happened to never slipping away?
Please don't go..
What's the point of them existing,
If they will become broken.
Whatever happened to trust?
It seemed to fade away,
Just like your personality.
Whatever happened to your laughter?
I can't hear it anymore.
But your frown screams at me.
Whatever happened to your free spirit?
You seem so uptight,
Paranoid too.
What's happening?
You seem so blue,
What's going on with you?
Whatever happened to never slipping away?
Please don't go..
3.05.2010
My Heart
This is my heart.
It's not perfect.
It's been broken,
Then glued back together.
It's been strangled
It's been bruised.
Also easily used.
It's not very durable,
easily broken.
It's very intricate,
Really complex.
It's passive, not aggressive.
It pictures the fairy tale's
You know the one's with the white horse & prince?
Being the damsel in distress,
having the one you dream about rescue you?
This is my heart,
It wakes me up in the middle of the night,
To only realize, that I can't be with you.
It's not perfect.
It's been broken,
Then glued back together.
It's been strangled
It's been bruised.
Also easily used.
It's not very durable,
easily broken.
It's very intricate,
Really complex.
It's passive, not aggressive.
It pictures the fairy tale's
You know the one's with the white horse & prince?
Being the damsel in distress,
having the one you dream about rescue you?
This is my heart,
It wakes me up in the middle of the night,
To only realize, that I can't be with you.
1.25.2010
God's Light
A darkness takes over me.
Slowly, but surely.
It grabs my fingertips,
Then wraps around my hand,
Then arms, and before I know it,
I have been overtaken.
Sadness & weakness,
Is everything about me.
Misery,
Is everything I feel.
"God, I need you," I prayed.
"Keep me away from all the evil I have committed,
Let me see the light of your power."
After I said the words that made me feel ashamed.
The light and power of Him shined down on me,
I felt lifted, light, & loved.
Slowly, but surely.
It grabs my fingertips,
Then wraps around my hand,
Then arms, and before I know it,
I have been overtaken.
Sadness & weakness,
Is everything about me.
Misery,
Is everything I feel.
"God, I need you," I prayed.
"Keep me away from all the evil I have committed,
Let me see the light of your power."
After I said the words that made me feel ashamed.
The light and power of Him shined down on me,
I felt lifted, light, & loved.
1.15.2010
9:52 p.m.
So this isn't a poem as you can see, but I just wanted to share something with you that I learned at youthgroup yesterday. My boyfriend goes to a church and they have what is called a youthgroup. It's a lot of fun. Mostly kids go there, but they go there to have fun and learn about God. This was my first time going and I really enjoyed it a lot. I met new people and learned a lot. But anyways, something that the youth minister (Mr.Q) told us about blew my mind. I don't know if you've watched the news lately, but there was an earthquake in Haiti. On the scale for earth quakes it was a 7 out of 10. That is huge. Now Haiti doesn't have very strong buildings, it is a very very poor place. 9: 53 p.m. was when it struck them. Everything in their life was completely changed. Mr. Q showed us some images from the earth quake and one of them was very graphic. People were screaming and crying. Childerns without parents, parents without children is what he said. He said while we were sitting there, "Were in 9:52 p.m. now, going on with our own normal lives just like the people in Haiti were doing." We are just going on with our normal lives, waking up, school, work, homework, hanging out with friends, facebook, etc. Doing everything like we have all the time in the world when we really dont. He told us that we have good things in life, but are they the best? Doing your homework is good, but reading the Bible is the best. God brought us down here so we can spread his word. At any given moment it could turn into 9:53 p.m. for us. We dont have all the time in the world to do so. So for God we need to put aside some of the good things for the best things. That's what he did for us, right? He cured a person who had leperocy, brought a dead girl to life Mr.Q read out of The Bible. Jesus could cure anything he wanted to, but when he did cure it, he didn't want everybody to know. Why? Because if everybody knew about all the things he could do, everybody would come to him with all their needs. If he attended those needs, then he wouldnt have any time to do what he wanted to do. Save us. All those things he was doing were great, but that wasn't the best. The best for Jesus was saving us. All of this struck my mind, I am myself taking advantage of life that the Lord gave us and not doing what we were sent down here for. I want to be a good Christian and I want to be saved. But am I doing a good enough job? Are you doing a good enough job? I don't want to mean to spread the word and then for it to immidiately turn into 9:53 p.m. Everybody knows today is dangerous. It turns 9:53p.m. for too many people too much. So don't settle for the good, settle for the best.
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